My Future Isn't Certain

So perhaps I am starting this blog a little premature. I don't know if things are going to work-out that are going to allow me to even go to Cosmetology and Esthetics Schools.

I say, "schools" because I am planning on attending one school about 30 minutes away from where I plan on moving for Cosmetology. Then attending another school for Esthetics training about an hour and a half away from where I want to live. The first school, Michael's College of Hair Design, only offers a Cosmetologist program. The other school offers both and I almost moved to Lexington to attend Summit Academy, but I decided to move closer to my kids ASAP instead of waiting another 2 years to be close to them. I guess it should be a no-brainer; be as close to your kids as possible. But when you've been through all the things I've been though in the past 20 years, sometimes getting to the right answer becomes a bit more of a process. 

So what is my dream? I want to own my own business doing hair, facials, spray tanning and eyelash extensions. I want to work out of my apartment doing eyelash extensions and spray tanning and work out of a salon doing hair. Eventually I want to get a setup in my home so I can do facials and hair in there. I think that's about 5 years away. 

Maybe it's just foolish to think I can do all those services, but that's my dream for now.

So why do I live away from my kids?

I got sick about three years ago and had to be hospitalized for a month. I was out for several weeks and then had to go back to the hospital to be put on different medications. After I got out of the hospital my mom and I had to move to Indiana due to financial reasons. We had both loved in North Vernon before and it's just cheaper to live there than live in Northern Kentucky. So we made the move. In December of 2014, I was hospitalized for the third and final time. They found the right medications to control my condition and referred me to a nurse practitioner to do follow-up care. 

It's now July of 2017 and I am working part-time right now and living with my sister and her 5 children. I dream of moving closer to my three kids, going back to school and having a home of my own. 

So the next few weeks should tell me if my dream is going to happen now and in the way I have been planning or if my dream needs to find a different path. Because no matter what happens, I don't want to give up on these dreams. They are just too good!